meet me in montauk...

holy shit, i'm updating this mess..

2006-05-21T00:16:43Z

i figured i would vent all my shit here since a very minimal amount of people read it. anyway... the past 2 weeks been shit. i have been losing my mind about going to court and probation violations and blah blah blah. i can't wait for it to be over. being this stressed out leaves me in a weird place where i am always tired and my mind is always off on it's own thinking about jail and things of that nature. and when i'm not fully here i obviously can't concentrate on anything. and i have really been neglecting jenn lately . for one we never see each other because of our stupid work schedules and the fact that i have been working on sundays( for some unknown reason) which is one of our 2 days off that we have together. and even when we are here together it's late at night and we are both tired from work. jenn's allergies have also been acting up really bad lately which gives her really bad headaches and that doesn't help. but when we are here i am usually off in another world thinking about all my troubles always forgetting that the answer is right next to me. jenn makes me feel alot better about everything but it still lingers in my mind. i don't want to go to jail. i don't want to be on house arrest. i want the charges dropped and then for everything to be fine. jenn assures me that is exactly what is gonna happen, but it's not in my nature to just sit back and relax. it's more my style to expect the worst and then panic until it's over. all this put together is really dragging me down. i've been super depressed and randomly crying. even my boss noticed today that was down and he's a heartless monster(haha). i can't wait until tuesday/thursday when court is done and i get to talk to me probation officer about what is gonna go down. i don't wanna have to blow money on an attorney but i am gonna try my damndest to stay out of jail. i need to be in here. in her arms.

i am sorry that i am such a pessimist. i'm sure it's hard on you having to deal with all my shit all the time. i love you more than anything.

the end.

halloween.

2005-10-30T05:28:11Z

we just watched land of the dead. now we will watch dawn of the dead. and here's a quiz:

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	4.9
Mind:	4.4
Body:	5.1
Spirit:	2.6
Friends/Family:	5
Love:	9.1
Finance:	6.9
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

marsvolta327 @ 2005-08-17T18:33:00

2005-08-17T22:33:22Z

Very Well-Rounded

You have:
62% SCIENTIFIC INTUITION and
62% EMOTIONAL INTUITION

The graph on the right represents your place in Intuition 2-Space. As you can see, you scored above average on emotional intuition and above average on scientific intuition. (Weirdly, your emotional and scientific intuitions are equally strong.)

Your Emotional Intuition
score is a measure of how well you understand people, especially their
unspoken needs and sympathies. A high score score usually indicates
social grace and persuasiveness. A low score usually means you're good
at Quake.

Your Scientific Intuition
score tells you how in tune you are with the world around you; how well
you understand your physical and intellectual environment. People with
high scores here are apt to succeed in business and, of course, the
sciences.

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on Scientific
You scored higher than 99% on Interpersonal

Link: The 2-Variable Intuition Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid

yeah!!! so i finally mailed the shit to the insurance company so sometime in the near future i will be receiving a fat check so i can finally get a "new" car. hooray for me. everyone i talk to asks me "how's married life", or something similar.. and the answer is.. dun dun dun.."exactly the same" nothing has changed except i have a wife and she has a new last name. things are as good as ever. yay. i am hungry. wife is asleep. the end.

marsvolta327 @ 2005-07-28T17:55:00

2005-07-28T22:07:48Z

the Provacateur
(65% dark, 34% spontaneous, 50% vulgar)

your humor style:
VULGAR | COMPLEX | DARK

You'll crack on anything, and you're often witty, even caustic, about
it. Therefore, your sense of humor is polarizing. You're transgressive,
and you've got a seriously sharp 'edge'--maybe too much for some folks.

If they get
you, people think you're one of the funniest (and smartest) people in
the world. If they don't, they think you're an ass. Whatever, right?
While some might question your judgement, your comic intellect is
unquestionably respected.

PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Chris Rock - Lenny Bruce - George Carlin

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 81% on dark
You scored higher than 15% on spontaneous
You scored higher than 90% on vulgar

Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid

yup. jenn is about to leave with jennifer to go shopping. so i will sit here and watch t.v. or hopefully take a nap. what a fun life i live. truck was recovered. http://photobucket.com/albums/a161/rodbone/truck/
yeehaw.

oh.. i got married!!! yay. i am so happy. jenn is the most awesome person ever. i am so happy we ended up together. http://photobucket.com/albums/a161/rodbone/wedding%20stuff/

hooray.

i hear fireworks outside.

2005-07-03T02:33:22Z

someone stole my truck:( jenn is at her bachelorette party and i bored out of my mind. none of my friends want to hang out because they are tired or busy or whatever. bleh. oh well. i think i will eat some bombass chili w/ cheese and crackers and a peanut butter sandwich. fuck yeah!!! also i will begin burning the cds that were taken along with my truck.

i'm a wizard.

2005-06-20T05:32:11Z

it's late and i am trying to compile music for this dvd, which is hard because i don't have any good ideas on what to use. and no is really giving me any help(except bill). but that's pretty much what i expected. i am really excited to work on this and get it finished. i am getting married in 3 and a half weeks. insane. i am excited and very nervous. i don't like doing anything in front of a crowd. i always get stagefright.

meet me in montauk

2005-06-20T05:31:13Z

Which Tenenbaum are you? Discover @ Brillig

INFJ - the counselor
You scored 27% I to E, 31% N to S, 38% F to T, and 21% J to P!

Your type is best summed up by the word "counselor", which belongs to
the larger group of idealists. Only 2% of the population share your
type. You are so empathic that you often know what others need before
they know themselves. You are a complex person who can deal with
complicated issues and people, almost prefer to, as you love problem
solving. You can be something of an idealist or perfectionist, and
should try to take yourself a little less seriously.
You are a
supportive and insightful romantic partner, encouraging your mate to
have dreams and work hard to make those dreams come true. Because you
are so creative, you have a wealth of ideas to help them toward those
goals. You need harmony so much that you are driven to resolve conflict
quickly, as long as the terms don't violate your ethics. You feel the
most appreciated when your partner admires your creativity, trusts your
inspirations, and respects your values. It is also vitally important
that your partner be open and emotionally available - in other words,
that they be willing to share themselves completely.

Your group summary: idealists (NF)

Your type summary: INFJ

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 37% on I to E
You scored higher than 30% on N to S
You scored higher than 35% on F to T
You scored higher than 8% on J to P

</tabl

Link: The LONG Scientific Personality Test written by unpretentious2 on Ok Cupid

marsvolta327 @ 2005-04-24T15:22:00

2005-04-24T19:34:38Z

I took the What Home Movies Character Are You Quiz at beezar.com. I'm Coach McGuirk! What character are you?

haha. well we had a show at charlie's lounge last night. and that is the last time we let loy book a show. it was more red than i could imagine. we played 2 songs before they told us to shut it down and leave. of course the band that played after us was a cover band and played fucking skynyrd, nickelback and other crowd favs. i would rather play two songs from my heart and have a fat redneck kick us out than do that. oh well. i thought it was a great show and we got free beer. always a plus. jenn and i had our 9 month anniversary yesterday. she is shopping for rings and as soon as i get some money i will buy her one. it'll be great. i'm excited. she has gone to the cornbread festival for a while. i wanted to go really bad but i'm kinda hungover and don't wanna walk around for 2-3 hours. oh well. the new weezer cd has leaked and i am impressed, they seem to have gotten their shit together again finally. this cd is really good. i tend to jump around alot. haha. we are working on making this apt a home. we've set up the other room and we are gonna get a kitchen table soon. wow. i never thought i would actually be settling down and fixing up a house. it's nice. very nice. we are going to see the mars volta on friday. that's gonna be awesome. the end.

the donkey headed adversary of humanity closes the discussion.

2005-04-13T14:10:27Z

01. Who are you, what's our relationship?:
02. How and where did we meet?:
03. What's my middle name?:
04. How long have you known me?:
05. Tell me one good thing about myself?:
06. When you first saw me, what was your impression?:
07. My age:
08. Birthday:
09. My favorite band at the moment:
10. Color eyes:
11. Do I have any siblings?:
12. Have you ever had a crush on me?:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do?:
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?:
15. Describe me in 3 words.:
16. Name 5 things I love:
17. Do you think I'm good looking?:
18. How would you describe me to someone?:
19. Would you ever date me?:
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me?:
22: If we could spend a day together, what would we do?:
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight?:
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
26. What do you think my weakness is?:
27. Do you think I'll get married?:
28. What makes me happy?:
29. What makes me sad?:
30. What reminds you of me?:
31. If you could give me anything, what would it be?:
32. When's the last time you saw me?:
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?:
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?:
35. Are you going to put this on your Livejournal and see what I say about you?:
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?:
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?:
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?:
39. Would you make a move on me?:
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

guess who will do this? jenn. and that's about it. i have a show on friday. weee. mars volta in 2 weeks? or so? the 29th. umm.. i need to go to work. fuck.

marsvolta327 @ 2005-04-08T18:46:00

2005-04-08T23:00:19Z

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. rodney
2. rodbone
3. rod(family only)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. maynard987
2. marsvolta327
3. burnusallalive

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my eyes
2. my smile
3. my throat(the inside)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my stomach
2. my man boobs
3. my lovehandles

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. irish.
2. cherokee
3. german

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. snakes
2. spiders(and most other bugs)
3. heights.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. some form of mario game
2. food
3. the warm caress of jenn's nakedness.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. umm.. glasses.
2. a smile
3. that is all.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. mars volta
2. dredg
3. nine inch nails

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. the mars volta - cygnus.. vismund, cygnus
2. dredg - ode to the sun
3. head automatica - beating heart baby

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. stability.(yup)
2. ability to put up with my insanity.(yup)
3. loooooove!(yup)

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. i hate mayonnaise.
2. i love my band.
3. i hate my job.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. eyes
2. ass
3. hair.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. singing.
2. playing guitar
3. lying around in bed all day(with jenn)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. for this to be over(so i can sex jenn up)
2. for it to be tomorrow.
3. warmth.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. rock star(funny huh?)
2. pizza hut 4 lyfe!!.
3. anything that makes me money.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. europe in general
2. canada.
3. iceland.

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. i have
2. no
3. idea.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married.
2. have babies.
3. try to be more assertive.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A DUDE:
1. i have a penis.
2. i din't like shopping.
3. i like to be messy.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i scream when i get scared.
2. i hate bugs
3. i take forever to get ready

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. thora birch
2. azura skye
3. jena malone

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. no one
2. no one
3. no one.

ok. way to have a serious update. tomorrow. or tonight. or never. who knows. who cares. my band is dicks. but they are good. so whatever.

even if you cannot hear my voice, i'll be right beside you dear.

2005-02-27T18:06:08Z

well i'm officially sick of being online. but it's the only thing to do to pass the time. i hate this fucking room and this empty bed. i hate sitting up till 5 just waiting for any chance to talk. and not being able to sleep because my mind and heart are going a thousand miles an hour. i hate crying. i hate the empty feeling i have. i miss arms and warmth. and eyes and lips. i miss kitties and gibberish words that make no sense. i miss tang and i miss you. i want to be moderately sane again. i want to move in right now. i want everything the way it was. i always thought i missed being here until i actually have to stay. i just want to be where she is. i sound so pathetic. it doesn't matter. i am pathetic. i am retarded over her. the phone just rings and rings.

i will be breaking my nails to claw my way to you...

2005-02-20T08:12:02Z

well we played fathom again tonight. i was sick and todd's amp died in the middle of the first song. the new song. garbagetown. other than that everything went alright. tons of fun. oh and someone in the crowd called me fat. let's see... some fucked up shit went down at work and the finger got pointed at me which fucking blows cause i didn't do it. and the person who pointed the finger was the person i thought i could trust. go figure. i'm pretty depressed at the moment as i usually am after shows. and also tired but can't sleep. exhaustion plus adrenaline equals... well they fucking cancel each other out i guess. so i'm blah.

marsvolta327 @ 2005-01-23T23:32:00

2005-01-24T04:51:31Z

You scored as Emo & More. Emo and Screamo.

</td>

Emo & More

75%

Hardcore

58%

Indie

54%

Mainstream

50%

Indie Rock

46%

Punk and Pop Punk.

46%

Industrial

42%

Britpop

33%

Hip Hop and Rap

25%

Classic Rock.

25%

Ska

25%

Country

Music Recommendation
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surprise, surprise.

show saturday. 6 songs instead of 5. very nervous. we should do well. went to loy's b-day party at northshore grill and then to the chattanoogan for random drunken shenanigans. proved to myself that i can't be apart from jenn ever. it sucks not being around her. today is our 6 monthiversary and i've barely seen her between band practice and her crashin at like 8:30. it's cool though, tomorrow is another day and i will spend it cuddling up to her. yay.

jesus that quiz is freaking huge.

i'm painting a portrait with the wrist i slit for you...

2005-01-09T18:03:55Z

christmas was awesome i got lotsa cool stuff from jenn. including this(my fav):

yay for me. i have a crush on every boy!!!!

new years was bleh. the end. we have a show coming up on january 29th@fathom with six step program and possible playground. fun stuff. we got 4 songs and a cover. not too bad. life is kinda just floating along right now. saw the life aquatic, it was great. birthday is soon. 31st. 23. old old old. lance uppercut.

I'll never sleep alone...

2004-12-15T17:31:39Z

soooo.... frances the mute has leaked and i'm about to listen to it on the drive back to jenn's house. man i am glad i didn't go to work today. this cd... is gonna be soooooo good. i already heard part of "the widow" i made me tear up it was so good. i'm so excited. too bad the drive to jenn's isn't 77 minutes long. which is the length of the cd.oh well. i think i'll get in the car now.

the last day parade...

2004-12-11T15:36:14Z

well the band has a name now... the apology letter.. dun dun DUN!!! (take that alpha children) and i have actually written 3 of the 5 songs that we've been practicing. we'll prolly start playing shows in mid january, once we get everything tight. that's the plan anyway. i must go christmas shopping. it's in 2 weeks. i ain't done shit. i am wicked lazy. and cold. and it was flurrying outside.. kinda. saw the moscow theater siege last night and of course they were awesome. i need to get off my ass and be their bass player. ran into jerry from hoth and they have a show at the local on wednesday, dec 15th, with platonic disease and burning doobage. that's cool cause the 15th is the anniversary of the day i met jenn at ziggys... at a burning doobage, hoth, and platonic disease show. we may go to that just for a little nostalgia. depends on her work schedule i suppose. well my hands are freezing so i am done.

after reading this i love how scatterbrained i am.

also, adam higgins needs to call(or email) a nigga from time to time.

you and me, we're in this together now...

2004-11-21T18:40:16Z

i do this out of boredom. damn your job jenn. and damn these dvds taking a million years to burn.

You are 65% Sketchy

How sketchy are you?

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Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:	ruiner
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:	the perfect drug
Describe where you want to be:	a warm place
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yeah... jenn is working. i have band practice tonight. which is good, but i wanna hang out with jenn. it's so much fun. i love her so much. it's great to be able to spend so much time with someone and not go insane.

the band is shaping up nicely. we need a name and i need to know that i have a secured place in it. they have shows lined up already.. which is crazy. i finally found a screamo band... hooray.

boredom...

2004-11-15T07:19:47Z

well, jenn is asleep and i'm watching strong bad emails. fun stuff. i wish she was awake so i could love on her. i'ma go cuddle with her in a few, but it's not the same when she's asleep. oh well, she had to work today and then deal with my crazy family for the duration of dinner. i guess i'd be tired too.

let's see... adam quit the band, which means i'm gonna try to be in loy's band again. i hope that works out cause they are really good and have lots of potential. and they are motivated... which would be a nice change. the alpha children just kinda waited for things to fall in their lap. i'm not quitting. but i am putting loy's band as the higher priority(if they even let me be the singer).

i got rearended again. so i'm hoping for a big fat insurance check so i can buy christmas presents.

oh jenn.. you are so wonderful. i don't really know what to say. you make me feel so warm and i love every moment i spend with you. every little thing you do is so adorable and makes me love you even more. yay.

a kiss in the shape of a bullet

2004-10-11T02:15:35Z

well to be honest the show at fathom(in my opinion) was not good. everyone tells me it was, but i have my doubts. the whole night sucked. saturday was flash and stephanie's wedding. that was long. but it was great. i am so happy for them. flash is a goober but stephanie loves him so i am happy for her. she looked great. too bad the whole thing was "christfest2004". wedding are very strange and grand. oh well. it was nice. after that was the reception which lasted 800 years. jenn and i left early. cause i was tired and full of delicious food that they served. oh yeah.. jenn cut off all of my hair last weekend. i don't really know what to say about that. it's gone. it looks good. and umm.. that's all.

jenn... i love you. more than words. more than i can ever show you. i will do anything to keep your heart next to mine. to keep your arms around me. thank you for being so wonderful and understanding all the time. i love you with all my heart.

when you mention blue...

2004-10-02T04:58:00Z

Which Radiohead song are you?

No Surprises

You look so tired-unhappy. Bring down the government, they don't speak for us.

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rock. show on oct. 8th.@fathom. 7pm. manvstree(farewell show) pride before a fall the mirror never lies. us. yip yip. life is gay sometimes. like really gay. but then i get my insurance check for 1600$ and all is well for a second. jenn is so great. but seems to get aggrivated with me very easily lately. maybe it's my fault and if it is then i need to fix it cause i don't wanna lose her ever. she really means the world to me. and its hard to express that sometimes. especially since i hate my job and don't wanna get outta bed some mornings. i know she understands but sometimes i take it out on her. and i shouldn't do that. cause she goes through alot of her own shit and she doesn't need my fucking guilt trip. jenn i am sorry that i suck and that i don't always wanna go out and do stuff like you do. i'm much less of a homebody than i used to be and it's because of you. i try to make you happy and i hope that i am doing a halfway decent job. i love you. i love you so much. hurry up and come hug me.

it's our time to shine.

2004-09-12T23:41:38Z

so we had a show at ziggy's last night and aside from the crazy ziggy's employees kicking everyone out after midnight, we played a great show and i hada great time. the p.a. was acting a damn fool which sucks, but it happens sometimes. hoth didn't get to play which pissed me off alot because i REALLY wanted to see them again. they are a great band and very nice guys. it was good night for us.. a bad night for them. which i am sincerely sorry about. i can't wait until they play again. moscow theater seige played and they were great as always. i love them so much. they have so much talent and alot of potential. i'm gonna try to get them on as many of our shows as i can. state of revision was great as well. we played with them on fri. in cleveland and we were well received. it was a good weekend. jenn rocks my world all over the place and i hope she continues to do so for a long time. thank you baby for being so wonderful to me.

marsvolta327 @ 2004-09-04T01:38:00

2004-09-04T05:38:29Z

so yeah... everything is pretty much normal. jenn and i are great. i love her. alot. it's warm and yummy. we spend alot of time together and i enjoy every second of it. she's so great to me. she cooks and takes care of me when i need it. and when i come home she is always waiting with hugs and kisses. everytime i see her i get this warmth inside. there is no where i'd rather be than in her arms. god.. i hope i don't sound completely insane. who cares. yay for us. got a show in a week. fun stuff. pure volume finally started working so now i can make everyone online listen to me whine about dumb crap. awesome.

marsvolta327 @ 2004-08-21T02:43:00

2004-08-21T06:43:08Z

i've been told to "post this asshole" so here:

Which Band Should You Be In? by couplandesque
Your Name
Band Name	Bad Religion
Role	Drummer
Trademark	Hair Colour Changes Constantly
Love Interest	The Drummer

Quiz created with MemeGen!

ok. so life is good. jenn is the best thing to ever happen to me. she rocks so hard. i can actually see us being together for a long time. we saw hoth and platonic disease tonight. they were both awesome, of course. alpha children has a few shows coming up in september so i am happy about that. the 10th in cleveland with state of revision and the 11th at ziggys with moscow theater seige, state of revision, and hoth. i am really looking forward to that one. i have to get up in 6 hours and go track vocals for the demo. gay. i just wanna sleep in and hug jenn all day. she makes me smile and feel so special. on monday we will have been together for a month. it's weird cause it's gone by so fast but it feels like so much longer. god... i love her so much. it's been a long time since i was this happy. yeehaw. i think i hear her coming in, so i'm out to get my cuddle on.

bring me the disco king.

2004-08-01T23:41:08Z

so where to start. life has a strange was of working out sometimes. i'm finally through all the shit that's been going on with ex girlfriends. thank god. which leaves my plate open to have fun and be happy for once. so i did and i am. i finally met a nice girl who likes me for who i am. jenn is someone i've been looking for for a long time. we have so much in common and it just feels right to be next to her every night. i just wish she wouldn't play that "i'm not talking to you" game. i hate that. haha. i've only known her for a little over 2 weeks but i feel very close to her. it's wonderful. i'm so very glad i met her. enough lovey stuff. the band is doing very well. which i am extremely happy about. this band is more productive than any band i've ever tried to be in. and we are actually good. i feel very creative when i work with these foolsshow in bridgeport with man vs tree on the 14th, should be quite a time. . life is looking up for the first time in a long time. i am happy. and that is saying alot for me. cause i never am. wow, i almost cried when i said that. maybe i am secretly emo as fuck. probably.

there are no words.

2004-07-26T07:10:12Z

that is jared on the night he left us. he was a strange character to say the least, but i had a quite a few interesting conversations with this man. he could and would talk about anything for as long as you would let him. he was a very abstract thinker, and that is an understatement. i really don't know what to say about him. he was a very laid back, nice guy. a true individual. it saddens me deeply to have to write this tonight. jared, you will be missed.